i was supposed to move out, but my parents begged me to stay and offered to get me access to a car. how getting a car would permit me to have a social life when i have neither the money to put gas in a car nor a designated driver for it, i couldn’t figure out.
The red neon has tried to kill me at least three times.
Apparently, if i am unhappy with driving the red neon, i can take the bus.
My parents have refused to pay for a bus pass because i don’t use it enough. Apparently, at 22 years old, i should ask for money everytime i want to go somewhere.
I turned down a job and a great apartment offer last month because they guilted me into staying. I should know better. People don’t change.
I need a job and an apartment pronto. I might end up taking a year off school to pay for said apartment. i hate having things up in the air all the time like this, but, i can’t take being yelled at.
The irony is, the reason i should stay was “we stand between you and hell right now;” funny, this feels a lot like hell. I want a normal student life, i.e. not to commute 2 hours in and out everyday AND work to put gas in a car. I want food i can actually eat without getting fat and having to buy new clothes. I want a clean workplace (i.e. no relish drops on the table from food i never ate, no dishes with food turning in the sink, no floors that i stick to when i walk around barefoot).
i know – life isn’t fair. But i should have learnt in April…leopards don’t change their spots. I need to stop trusting people.