my bad mood continued for most of the day and into the evening yesterday because i was not havinga very good day at work. By nightime i was feeling kind of sad and lonely, but i feel asleep quickly once i tried (around 2am) and didn’t wake up until 10am, so i can’t say that i didn’t get enough sleep. I may not be catching up on lost sleep, but at least i am not falling further behind.
the thunder and lightning was just awesome last night. i could hear the rain crashing down on the stone patio outside my window and it was alive outside. if i had not been wearing only a satin nightgown i might have gone out to dance in the rain – and as most people know how i NEVER dance, i obviously felt not sad, just not really alive.
I want to do something stupid. Something i can’t intellectualize and justify. Something crazy that will make the adrenaline run through my veins. Any suggestions?
It is a beautiful day out and i am supposed to be meeting Eric in town. I got up too late to get that haircut i promised my Dad i would get. Thursday is another day i guess. Thursday is payday actually. Something to look forward to. I need to buy stamps as i have three letters to mail.
Is it wrong to want to be a lesbian because i am sure it would guarantee me cuddling?